“I just can't seem to stop procrastinating. It’s like this never-ending battle, and it’s affecting every aspect of my life. I know I need to get things done, but I always find ways to delay or avoid them. I am not motivated by anything. I am just lazy.” She admitted.

Even though there was frustration in her voice, her face seemed calm, like she was numbed by it.

I asked if there was anything specific she would procrastinate about. 

“It’s pretty much everything. I keep postponing work tasks, even the ones I used to enjoy. I've got personal projects I’ve been putting off for ages. And even simple things like cleaning the house or paying bills become major hurdles. It’s like I'm stuck.”

I asked her to recall an instance when she caught herself procrastinating and how she felt in that moment.

She related how just that morning she had a report due for work and even though she knew it was important, she found reasons not to do it. 

“I checked my emails, organised my desk, and even went for a walk around the block. I was thinking I will finish it quickly and then was left with very little time. Ultimately I submitted a very poor report, which could have been a very good one.” 

When I probed further she admitted she had felt overwhelmed with the task at hand. “I wasn't sure where to start. I kept thinking about how much work it was going to be and how I might not do it well enough. It was almost like I was paralysed by the thought of it. 

She had identified her state of mind and that’s when the journey of self-awareness began for her.